Wednesday, August 30, 2006

"Anger will bring angst"

There's no apparent reason to give up believing. It's the same feeling. "The Pain That I'm Used To". The fact I've learnt to understand. Is the illusion and hope which keep the crystal clear. And the letters that walk along the shore will form words some day, the words will turn into thoughts to be kept... and the thoughts will draw a perfect place again. Every single thing is absolutely equiprobable in this unpredictable environment... and tears do not draw anything. Never. Nor does anger.
Then... one crow in the palace said: "It may be gone now... but you've lived it, it has existed and you're the most luckiest person in the world to be able to recall it... and that memory is just yours, and it's forever... the crystal won't break this time, I promise".
I believe crows.
I love crows.
"...optimism and kindness will bring triumph,
anger will bring angst..."

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Cádiz

... s o m e d a y ...
Los Caños De Meca, Barbate, Cádiz.

"Under wandering stars I've grown by myself but not alone, I ask no one and my ties are severed clean the less I have the more I gain... rover, wanderer, nomad, vagabond, call me what you will!... I redefine anywhere... anywhere I roam, where I lay my head is home" - "Wherever I May Roam", Metallica.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Your life burns faster...

Metallica - "Master Of Puppets"
Sonata Arctica - "My Land"
The 69 Eyes - "The Chair"
Apocalyptica - "Path"

... obey your Master!

Friday, August 18, 2006

Polaris

Once upon a time there was a star in a far far away galaxy. She travelled on cloud trips anytime she got the chance, which was not really often, they were just allowed to do a very few travels in their lives. In her galaxy all the stars were together in a big crystal box and altogether brought light to their galaxy. They were all pretty much the same, they have not used their opportunities to travel because they thought their galaxy was the only and best ever galaxy in the whole universe. She was, somehow, different. She had not many friends there; most of them were always making fun of her because she believed there was a galaxy somewhere in which stars drew constellations. She worked overtime to get cloud tickets. Once she travelled and the cloud broke down so she jumped off. Next to that unknown place there was a sign: "Milky Way". She was not sure were she was going... everything happened so fast but she ended up in some kind of carriage called Ursa Minor. There was a Scorpion, a Dragon, a Lion, an Archer, some Fishes, a Crab, a king called Cepheus, three bright stars together which create Orion's belt... There she was, in that place everyone told her to believe it didn't exist... for centuries she guided ships pointing the North... and she still does.

Back in the galaxy where she grew up they get a letter saying she won't come back because she had found that place where stars drew constellations. When they got the letter they were too proud to admit that they also believed that place existed when they were young, when they still have not given up dreaming, which the start they made fun of never did. They just resigned themselves to believe that box was the only thing in the entire universe. Now, they can't travel to see the constellations because the cloud never came back, neither the star. Nobody knows now how they wished they have joined the star to go searching for the constellations when she invited them to. Now, they cover their sadness saying the star was always crazy and immature to believe in constellations and that she never came back because she got lost in a black hole, but inside they know that box will never be as bright as the Pole Star. Falling stars are stars escaping from that big box trying to reach the constellations... just a few of them do that, and they may be as crazy and immature as the rest would say but just as the Pole Star was when she took that cloud trip and now, she's there, living in one of those constellations, shining brightly.
- by Lidia, August 2006.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

E is for...

Energy
Emotion
Experience
Erotism
Enchantment
Excitement
Exotic
Elegance
Exponential
Electricity
Explore
Europe
Extraordinary
Endorphins
Exist


All these words begin with E in Spanish too. End doesn't. Eternity does but it scares me. And they are opposite things, or at least that's what they are
supposed to be... though any eternity does eventually have an end and many ends last an eternity.

E is also for Estatic Fear.

Estatic Fear - "A Sombre Dance" (1999)

Pure melodic astonishing melancholic hypnotic symphonic delicate medieval doom gothic classical-music-influenced... metal? band from Austria. One of the best albums I have ever heard. A secret masterpiece. It can't be described really, you just have to hear it, and just live through its ten tracks that magically become an Intro and nine chapters of an story told by different characters. I can't choose just one song. You should not change the order of the chapters because it loses its magic. Give it a try. More info on Estatic Fear here.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

"Convulsive Erotic Misery"

... aka "Loverman" by Nick Cave And The Bad Seeds covered by Metallica.

There's something that Hetfield's voice has and creates in the atmosphere of this song that Cave's doesn't. At least for me. Whatever it is, it fascinates me in a way I just can't put into words properly... or decently. Sorry Nick Cave...

"... the same jarring mix of light and dark in Metallica's "Fade To Black" can be heard in the convulsive erotic misery of "Loverman" from Cave's 1994 album with the Bad Seeds, Let Love In." - David Fricke [Metallica's Garage Inc. booklet].

"LOVERMAN"
[Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds, covered by Metallica]

There's a devil waiting outside your door
(How much longer?)
There's a devil waiting outside your door
It is bucking and braying and pawing at the floor
And he's howling with pain and crawling up the walls
There's a devil waiting outside your door
He's weak with evil and broken by the world
He's shouting your name and he's asking for more
There's a devil waiting outside your door
Loverman! Since the world began
Forever, Amen Till end of time
Take off that dress I'm coming down
I'm your loverman
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am

L is for LOVE, baby
O is for ONLY you that I do
V is for loving VIRTUALLY everything that you are
E is for loving almost EVERYTHING that you do
R is for RAPE me
M is for MURDER me
A is for ANSWERING all of my prayers
N is for KNOWING your loverman's going to
be the answer to all of yours

Loverman! Till the bitter end
While empires burn down
Forever and everand ever and ever
Amen I'm your loverman
So help me, baby So help me
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
I'll be your loverman!

There's a devil crawling along your floor
There's a devil crawling along your floor
With a trembling heart, he's coming through your door
With his straining sex in his jumping paw
There's a devil crawling along your floor
And he's old and he's stupid and
he's hungry and he's sore
And he's lame and he's blind
and he's dirty and he's poor
Give him more, give me more...
There's a devil crawling along your floor

Loverman! Here I stand Forever, Amen
Cause I am what I am what I am what I am
Forgive me, baby, my hands are tied
And I got no choice, no, I got no choice at all

I'll say it again
L is for LOVE, baby
O is for O yes I do
V is for VIRTUE, so I ain't gonna hurt you
E is for EVEN if you want me to
R is for RENDER unto me, baby
M is for that which is MINE
A is for ANY old how, hon
N is for ANY old time

I'll be your loverman! I got a masterplan
To take off your dress and be your man
Seize the throne seize the mantle seize the crown
Cause I am what I am
What I am what I am I'm your loverman!

There's a devil lying by your side
You might think he's asleep
but take a look at his eyes
He wants you, baby, to be his bride
There's a devil lying by your side
Loverman! Loverman!

That David Fricke totally got the definition ;)